Last Night

What I went through last night was painful, and I went through it alone which makes it more painful. For the first time in my life I felt that I was alone.

When I hand the envelope to him last night, it was then I realized that I was handing him not just the envelope but also her. It took me that one big blow to realize that I should go back to where I should be.

The pain was enormous, as I turn my back from them, my tears started to fall. At that moment I wish heaven would fall upon me.

I'm trying to be calm, I'm trying to be alright. I know I would but I don't know how soon.

Some would not understand my feelings, simply because they find it improper and inappropriate. I myself knew that. One lesson that I learned, I don't have the right, hence I should not.